Could life get much better?

Lovely weekend which included all of the following: a trip to my very first gay bar, courtesy of Acree, outlet mall shopping, seafood eating, hanging out with old friends and new, and talking to the ones who aren't here over the phone. And not that much sleep (unfortunately). Sounds pretty fun right? It was!

Although, I must admit I didn't accomplish my two main weekend goals:
1. Buy a new suit. Everything at the outlets was ugly.
2. Meet Ludacris at a liquor store meet-n-greet on Saturday at Green's. I figured my chances of seeing him in a random liquor store around Atlanta some time in the future are pretty high...

But, I did do a lot of quality Sex and the City watching! That counts for something, right? Plus, last night I did laundry and washed dishes. If only I could bring myself to actually vacuum. Very doubtful. Tonight I must watch my usual Monday night tv (plus Greek, yay) and possibly pop out to Urban Outfitters to pick something up. We'll see how motivated I am.

Exciting, wonderful, awesome things that are happening in the next few days:
-Raleigh on Thursday, hooray!
-BRITNEY on Saturday with Matthew.
-some good bbq eating at home, hopefully.
-DISNEY in 10

Could life get much better?

If at first you don't succeed...

try again.

Trivia Champ

Thats right, my group actually won trivia last night! Hooray! Its only the second time I've ever won--although the first time with Sarina at Foothills is still my proudest win :) And speaking of Sarina, I've got my fingers crossed really, really tight for her to get a job in ATL. My life would be complete. Everyone, please think good thoughts.

I've got a pretty uneventful weekend planned so far. Sleepover party with Acree tonight (very excited), probably seeing the lovely Marietta crew tomorrow and possibly even a trip to the outlet mall on Sunday. Overall, sounds promising to me! And even better, I'll be home in less than a week. I haven't been able to say that for two months.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

A genuinely good day

Remember how yesterday I said I maybe had a new attitude...with a question mark? Today its a period. New attitude for sure. I'm happier, I feel lighter and I'm mostly just thankful. I just hope the feeling is permanent :)

Today I'm particularly happy about:

1. Going out to lunch somewhere totally delicious.
2. My lovely co-workers.
3. The fact that Sarina is here and we got to hang out last night! A short visit is still a good visit!
4. Potential outlet mall shopping this weekend.
5. Serious girl time this weekend.
6. My fabulous co-workers who I like more every day.
7. Leftover Mexican food for dinner tonight :)
8. Trivia tonight.
9. Raleigh in one week!
10. Friday tomorrow!

And this makes me happy:

There's just something really nice about sailboats, right? Wish I was there now :)

New Day...

...new attitude? I think so. I hope so. I finally closed a chapter yesterday that I had needed to close a for a while. Its hard to let go of some things, but even worse to hold onto them when you know it isn't good for you. I got the closure that I needed for the sake of my sanity, and now I can actually start to move forward. This is absolutely a step in the right direction, but sometimes those first steps are just so hard.

Again, my friends are wondeful people to put up with my crazy phone calls. I love you all dearly, and am lucky to have you in my life. I can pretty much guarantee you haven't received the last slightly insane call from me, but hopefully they'll be fewer and more far between now :)

Ode to Ben

Thank you, Obama, for doing the first smart thing in months, and keeping Bernanke as head of the Fed.

Not so good

I'd been doing so, so well and then boom--yesterday was a bad day. No good very bad day. Its like they just come out of the blue. Its days like that when I want a roommate so badly. Someone to talk to in the evening, and not just on the phone. Thank God for my friends though. I'm not sure I would physically make it through the evening without them to talk to and cry to.

So now I've got a little bit of soul-searching to do, and I'm not so excited about it. Last night I just wanted to run to NC and hide under the covers at my parents' house. But, thats kind of the crappy thing about being a grown-up, especially a grown up who lives 6 hours away from home. That's not really possible. Sigh. At least I get to be there in 9 days...thank goodness. This weekend I'll just have to occupy myself with my lovely friends.

Plus, my day was doubly worse because I've got some crazy spring-time-esque allergies going on. My scratchy throat and puffy eyes are very attractive...not!

Hopefully I'll be feeling better tonight. I have a feeling its just going to be one of those weeks, and I'll deal with it. Probably won't be pleasant, but I'll make it.

The Hope Diamond

Everyone knows I am obsessed with the Hope Diamond. I have never been to Washington DC without "visiting" my old friend. Two weeks ago when I was in DC again was no different (of course). Well, I have very exciting news about the gorgeous jewel: they are resetting it to commemorate its 50th anniversary at the Smithsonian! Go here to vote on a new setting.

Personally I think the new settings are alright, but nothing will ever beat the original.

New week, new attitude

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend...I know I did. Lots of sleeping and relaxing and seeing friends, which was great. I got to see a friend from Wake on Saturday who just moved down here for grad school--so awesome to catch up with her and add yet another college friend to the mix in Atlanta. I had dinner in midtown with Jenn and some lawyer friends on Saturday night. We went to Shout (the sister restaurant of Twist--which I didn't really love). Shout was excellent, though! Yummy sushi, fun booths to sit in and a really great patio/dance floor/dj area upstairs outside. The weather was perfect that night, and we had a great time. Yesterday I went over to Claire's house to see her and Hailey dog, and we went to the dog park together. So much fun!

Now I'm back to another work week--an actual 5 day work week, too. Boo hiss. But it should be a nice, quiet time in the office without too many meetings, so I can't complain too much.

And, as always, I've got other stuff going on this week to keep my brain fully occupied. I'm a little bit anxious about it, so I hope I can keep that under control and just be calm this week. Whatever happens, will happen. I just need to keep repeating the "I will accept what I cannot change" mantra to myself. Ugh. But on the positive side: Sarina is coming down for a whirlwind visit on Wednesday! Hooray! How lucky am I to get to have another visit with a Wake friend that I didn't even expect.

Also, I am beyond excited that my countdown to Raleigh is only 10 days, and the Disney World countdown is 17! YAY!

Another happy day and I'm so glad! I think its a sign that maybe I'm finally back to my normal self! I hate that it feels "weird" to be happy most every day, but its been a long summer. So I'm extra appreciative.

The flex day has been very successful. I went to the gym (I know...insane), watched lots of excellent day time tv, had an eye doctor appt that I've been putting off for months and am currently making a chicken/stuffing/vegetable casserole in my oven! I also bought weights at Target this afternoon...who is this fitness-loving person? Not sure, but I'm going to run with it while I can. And I hope the cooking goes well, so it will lead to more in the future.

Something relatively major is coming up most likely next week, and I'm a little apprehensive about it. Hopefully everything will go well and I can get through it without freaking out too much. Have a happy Friday night friends!

I'm not sure why I feel the need to post, when 9 times out of 10 I have nothing really worthwhile to say. Ehh whatev...it passes the time at work.

I've got nothing new to report since yesterday, except that I'm terribly homesick for good old NC. I'm pretty excited about the fact that I'll be there in two weeks! Hooray! I might even treat myself to a Bojangles run this weekend. This three day weekend. Sigh...how wonderful. Not sure what I'll be doing yet. Hopefully seeing some friends--including a Wake friend who just moved here for grad school yay!--and seeing at least one movie. We'll see. I'm also going to allow myself to go to Lenox mall tomorrow. I know it'll be glorious. I also need to do other unfun things like cleaning and going to the gym...oh well. At any rate, its still the weekend.

I'm hoping for no rain so that I can stack up some mags and sit by the pool for hours and hours. Fingers crossed! Have a fabulous weekend everyone!

Happy

Continuing on the theme of the past 2 days, I'm really happy today for no particular reason. Thank the Lord! I've waited so long to feel like my normal, happy self again, and this trend is hopefully here to stay.

Last night I had dinner and attempted to play trivia with my new work friend! We live right around the corner from each other, so we went to a place within walking distance that just opened. The food was good, but it was their first night doing trivia, and it started an hour late, so we gave up and left. It was still really fun to get together with someone from work--we have lots in common and had lots of fun together. Can't wait to do it again maybe next week!

Today has been a busy one at the office, and tonight I'm looking forward to doing as little as possible. I've got to pick up a bridal shower gift and mail some things, but otherwise I plan to sit on the couch and do nothing. Its supposed to rain for the rest of the week, and I'd love a thunderstorm to listen to tonight!

And for everyone's viewing pleasure, a trailer for Chris Rock's new movie. Hysterical.

Positivity!

Ok, the word "positivity" kind of reminds me of some old school Spice Girls (and that's not a bad thing), but the last couple of days have been just that--positive. I've been in a consistent good mood, which is more than I can say for myself recently. I have lots of good things to share, too!

1. Congrats to K who got herself into a fabulous law school (very last minute, but hey, when you're in, you're in). I am beyond thrilled for her and am so excited she is slowly coming south and getting closer to me! Also, she wins the prize for my only friend who has ever called me to say "hey, I moved into school in another state, but before I could even sleep in my new bed, I'm moving into another school in another state." Crazy.

2. Another one of my bffs just found out she has a second round interview for a fabulous job in ATLANTA next week! I don't even really want to let myself think about her getting this job--it would be too perfect and I will not jinx it. But, if I do let myself get a little carried away....it would solve my lack of roommate problem and a long-distance friend problem in one swoop!

3. My new friends at work are amazing. I'm going to trivia tonight with one of them--its been ages and I'm so excited to be going again! So happy to meet new wonderful people.

4. Yesterday, while I was reading random facebook profiles, I stumbled on someone's page that listed one of their activities as "accepting things which I cannot change". Pretty profound I think. I even wrote it on a post-it note in my apartment. This little phrase might just be a step in the right direction of consistent happiness, and that is a very good thing!

5. I get to go home in 16 days! I realized the other day that I'm totally homesick...missing Raleigh really badly. It happens when I don't get to go home for over a month. I can't wait to go home and see everyone (especially my cat) soon!

6. I'm going to Disney World on vacation with some of my wonderful ATL friends in less than a month! Yay!! I've been wanting to go to Disney for a long while, and I can't wait for the opportunity to bond with the girls for a long weekend in the happiest place on earth.

7. I've been cooking more. I even bought lots of real groceries and chicken breasts last weekend. I'm going to attempt to make a real meal on Friday!

8. There are at least 3 movies out right now that I want to see (Julie and Julia, The Time Traveler's Wife---I told you yesterday that I'm an emotional cutter, right?, and Post Grad coming out this weekend). I love going to the movies (even though it costs $10 in Atlanta...boo).

9. Rainy weather. My favorite.

10. I swear that the Sex and the City movie is better than therapy. Watch it...you'll see what I mean.

Monday rambles

Hi again dear readers! I feel like there has been so much going on lately, and I have so much to type about, but I can't remember any of the things I wanted to say. Hmm...maybe this is a sign that I'm getting old a little too quickly.

First, a life update. I realize that my last post was a downer, but whatever. Some days just kind of suck, and Friday was one of those days unfortunately. Just kind of blah and thinking about all kinds of things I shouldn't have been thinking about and hanging around the apartment all day by myself. Not such a great way to spend a day off. I'll admit: even makeup and shoe shopping could not perk me up, which is rare. Usually retail therapy is just the ticket, but lately I've been a little bored with shopping. Insanity, I know. So, Friday was sucky and boring and unfortunately that feeling carried over to Saturday morning. But luckily, I perked myself up because Amy and Sarah came over to spend the night! We went to the Braves game in the afternoon--so fun, they beat the Phillies in the bottom of the 9th (and I actually know what "bottom of the 9th" means). Our seats were in the shade the whole time, too. Overall, really awesome. Afterwards, we went to Trader Joe's to stock up on deliciousness before going out for the evening. We started at Moon Dogs, which was really fun and cheap and smoky, in a college bar kind of way. Then we moved over to Fado for the rest of the evening. I had a really great time with the girls!

Sunday morning, we all woke up feeling pretty gross even though we didn't go too crazy the night before. Again, I'm old. We had lunch at Tin Lizzy's and I spent the rest of the afternoon being a lazy bum on the couch with all my new HD channels. Also chatted with Sarina on the phone, which is always nice. We feel the same way about a lot of things, and I feel like we're going through a similar life situation right now. In short, I don't feel so crazy once I talk to her, which is a good feeling (especially since I feel like the crazy has kind of been taking over me lately).

Overall a good weekend. Having the girls spend the night also reinforced my want for a roommate. It was awesome having them around to make dinner with, get ready with, and just to sit around watching tv with on Sunday morning. Its definitely the little things like that I miss the most about having a roomie. Hopefully something will work out by the time my lease is up!

In other news, I'm finally back in my office after the whopping four weeks out. I've felt kind of antsy here all day, but I'm having fun catching up with everyone. I was especially excited to meet the two new people in my office. They are both young and really nice. I'm so excited to have more friends here now--and my age!

And of course I must comment on all the celeb news I've been neglecting as of late:
1. Jon and Kate is still depressing. I try my best not to watch, but just can't stop. Also, I read on US Weekly this morning that this week is the one year anniversary of their vow renewal in Hawaii. How sad.
2. Kourtney Kardashian is pregnant. With her creepy ex-bf's baby. Need I say more?
3. Melissa Joan Hart and Aaron Carter are both going to be on DWTS next season. That might be enough to finally put me over the edge and force me to watch!

Home at last

You'd think i'd be thrilled, right? Well, in theory I am. It was great to get to my apartment last night (after an insanely long and miserable MARTA ride). I ate veggies for dinner that I cooked myself, talked to Sarina on the phone and did two gigantic loads of laundry. Then I went to bed at 9:30 in my own bed. All of this was glorious. As much as I enjoyed DC and seeing all my lovely friends, it was definitely time to go.

But here I am again: alone in Atlanta. You would think I'd be thrilled to finally be home after an epic month of travel. I finally have time to sit around by myself and do as little as possible. This is a three day weekend, after all. Most people would be happy...usually, I'd be happy. But something just isn't right. I'm still unhappy. Unsatisfied...whatever you want to call it. Obviously, the root of the problem is still the same. I wish I could shake it, but I just can't right now. I've pretty much stopped trying. Sometimes you have to just let yourself wallow a little and deal with it. Unfortunate, but true I think. And after talking to my bffs, they convinced me that I'm going to need some closure eventually. Meaning: when the "end of the summer" rolls around--whatever that means--if a certain someone hasn't called me, I'm going to have to contact him myself and just talk things out. Its pretty painful to think about, but necessary. Honestly, I wish I could get it over with now, but I've got to at least give it until September. Hopefully I'll be able to be as positive and happy as possible until I get up the courage to make the call (or email, hehe).

Anyway, thanks to all my lovely friends & readers, and K in particular, for continuing to actually speak to me and be interested in my life and deal with me on the phone when I call out of the blue totally depressed and then am back to normal about 5 mins later. Myabe I'm bipolar and should see a therapist and/or pharmacist, haha. Or maybe not...don't want to develop a Michael Jackson situation!

And just to finish things off on a positive note, here are a few good things about today, that even a sometime-emotional-trainwreck can appreciate:
-my new HD cable! the channels are amazing.
-sleeping in my own bed
-my washing machine is working normally again!
-closet organization
-gorgeous weather
-hopefully laying out by the pool later
-fun plans with friends tomorrow :)

"We're not worthy"

I will be waiting very impatiently for all of these!

Documentation

I'm a Lazy Blogger

Busy couple of weeks in DC & I apologize for the lack of blogging! I've been having a fabulous time visiting with friends, hanging out in our nation's capital and enjoying class--no real work! Here's a new highlights of the last week and half:

1. Spent last weekend with my parents and visited the Newseum!

2. Have seen so many friends its amazing--Ash and Katie, Sara, Kristin, Emily, Al...omg, I wish I could hang out with all of them on a regular basis! I miss them so much and have had the best time ever seeing them all in DC.

3. Ate delicious seafood in Annapolis and got to see pretty sailboats. I love being near the water!

4. Exploring DC on my own (and of course visiting the Hope Diamond!).

5. Danced the night away on Saturday.

Why can't every two week period of life be this fun?! I wish.